In the early weeks of motherhood, my days followed roughly this pattern: breastfeed or pump milk for 20-30 (sometimes as long as 45) minutes; wash bottles, eat, change diaper, do laundry, and/or sleep all within the next hour and a half; repeat. Oh, and try to spend some time with the baby somewhere in there. I tracked my pumping frequency and output for my lactation consultant. As an example, on February 27 of this year, I pumped at 12:15 AM, 2:30 AM, 5:15 AM, 7:45 AM, 10:15 AM, 1:15 PM, 3:00 PM, 5:15 PM, 7:15 PM, and 9:00 PM. (If you haven’t had a baby and are under the mistaken impression that maternity leave is a restful vacation, think again.)
Quote of the Week
“You can learn to follow the inner self, the inner physician that tells you where to go. Healing is simply attempting to do more of those things that bring joy and fewer of those things that bring pain.”
—O. Carl Simonton
Turning To Your Network in Challenging Times
Every now and then, I have a recurring dream that many others have experienced as well. I’m in a classroom, and it’s the end of the semester. I had enrolled in this class but had forgotten about it. I haven’t been there in weeks. I haven’t done any of the reading. I know none of the material. It’s almost time for the final exam, and I’m panicking. I’m completely unprepared, and I’m going to fail.
When this dream appears, it’s an obvious sign that I’m feeling overwhelmed. I usually try to take it as a cue to reassess my priorities, remove a thing or two from my schedule, and maybe set aside some time to meditate, exercise, or otherwise relax and regroup.
Quote of the Week
“People at war with themselves will always cause collateral damage in the lives of those around them.”
― John Mark Green
Project 333, 3 Weeks In
It’s been three weeks since I started Project 333, where I limit my wardrobe to 33 items for three months, so this seemed like a fitting time for an update. Boxing up the rest of my clothes the day before I started the challenge was oddly anxiety-provoking. I felt a little sad packing away items I’d carefully selected, on which I’d spent good money not so long ago. I reminded myself that I wasn’t necessarily saying goodbye to those things forever, just taking them out of rotation for a little while. But my reaction made me notice how attached I am to some of my possessions, how tied they are to my self-image, and how hard it can be to let go.